Psalm 119

Psalm 119: 1-8.
Blessed are those whose way is blameless, who walk in the law of the LORD!
Blessed are those who keep his testimonies, who seek him with their whole heart,
Who also do now wrong, but walk in his ways!
You have commanded your precepts to be kept diligently.
Oh that my ways may be steadfast in keeping your statutes!
Then I shall not be put to shame, having my eyes fixed on all your commandments.
I will praise you with an upright heart, when I learn your righteous rules.
I will keep your statues; do not utterly forsake me!

We all have our foibles, and make our mistakes. I am like Paul, I run headlong into things that I do not want to do, and don't do half of the things that I do want to do for the LORD. My way is definitely not blameless. I pray so often that God will not utterly forsake me, though he would be totally righteous to do so, and I would not blame him. But then I remember, God the Father has promised his forgiveness, and God the Son has promised to never leave me nor forsake me, and God the Spirit reminds me of his presence. I guess I will just have to cling unflinchingly to those promises.

Oh that it would be said of me when I die that: "he was steadfast in his love for the Lord, and that he kept God's commandments, and that he understood grace." I fear that it will never be so.